Shy Face

So I'm clearly not going to be one of those super regular bloggers, i think my problem arises from a lack of definition of this blog, is this blog about my relationship with God, my career path, my beauty tricks and tips (all two of them :), you know what exactly?? Do i care about being 'discovered' Do i have any secrets..................i think i need to decide, then and only then can I know what exactly to talk about.................oh well.........................transition to sad face.

Return of the King

I suppose that since I have a blog, i should update it, i would imagine that this is one of the requirements. The title has nothing to do with anything, im randomly creative like that heeeeheeee. So today what shalt we talk about my love life..........which story do y'all want, the real life one that has like 2 paragraphs or the rich imaginary one which features hottie's, yummies and baddos's ;) No i'll save the 'juicy' details for later..............but let me tell you a bit about some of my friends who remind me of movies

There's ONu..........home boy is straight up like a yoruba movie with no plot, just winging it as he goes along, he's the kind of person that you can see on Monday, you guys are exchanging BFF bracelets and by Tuesday, you people are like Nigeria and was it Togo over the Bakassi Peninsula, all out war..... sometimes I'm so confused about what is going on, im like 'are we talking' not to annoy him but because i genuinely dont know, which only serves to further annoy him. With that said, he's a super reliable, fun person when he's in a good mood..........

Then there's JL, she honestly is like a chick flick.....no complications....easy to get along with, no surprises, in all the time ive known her, she has never done anything that made me think WT.......even her anger is calm..........she never shouts, always laughs at your jokes, always supports you, always there.........easy like Sunday Morning type person , not that Sunday is easy for me oh...with all the drama getting to church..........good times

Then there's WA, dear heart is straight up like Nollywood................sometimes she does stuff and your like............do people really act like that.......just thinking about her makes me laugh......i would elaborate more but just picture Ini Edo and Uche Jombo pulling stunts and speaking english in one of those their movies that leaves you thinking..................huh.........

There's OC......ah my 'Indie' movie friend................does her own thing and has her own solid staunch supporters.....nuff said

FF is like a Hollywood product.................everything is a major production.......all stops have to be pulled out for EVERYTHING!!! Drama in abundance BUT well produced drama not yoruba movie lets fight in the street for what no one know why type of drama

Last but not least is AO............Indian Movies here i come, everything is majorly emotional.........woe is me today, im in love tomorrow...............

thats all for now folks

This is just an update my blog post so larrez and Welcome my 2nd follower :) we are now the Kingdom of 3...................... doing galala yes ke!

Tralala

I was pretty unrepentant about my absence seeing as I've been the only one following this blog but since i returned and found i have have a follower now, i apologize dear kingdom of 2 that ive been gone....................Im pretty excited to have a follower heeheeee.....go me :). Actually what had happened is i forgot how to sign into my blogger account (so sad i know:(

I suppose i dont have to write lengthy epistles everytime im here but since my absence I'm sad to announce the death of my crush.......its ridiculous, after the long story i told about him, i saw him a few days later and he said something insulting to me...as a joke no doubt but i donlt like guys insulting me joking or otherwise..............i think there's something cheap and unmanly about it and now i dont like him anymore (note i didnt say friendly teasing)...............its weird its like scales (huge ones) fell off my face not even eyes but im sad it was nice crushing on him ...................heeheeee.....back to my love affair with myself i suppose (and Jesus too)

In other news, i have now learnt that a lot of the times we react, it is because of our limited ways, we know the way we react in situations and its hard to imagine anyone reacting in a different way...................I shalt be back with more interesting gist i promise..................okay i dont promise...........im a bad guyz so we shall see :)

On Crushes and the Likes

So I’m a huge fan of crushes….they enrich my life and fantasy world (in a loving xtian way of course…..im not defensive just saying…………….. ‘grabs halo viciously’)……… I will take this time to say my fantasy world is closer to my 5 yr old cousin’s than my real age of twenty-X………I have many fantasy friends and regular black Ken boyfriends….my alive and breathing friends wonder why I have a fantasy world or fantasy friends, according to them as it is I have too many ‘real’ friends as it is why would I need fake ones, I talk to them , these realimaginary friends and myself on the regular………..dont judge me now…we all have slivers of mania…… but I digress…….;)

Back to my esteemed crushes….im used to them, sometimes I see a hottie and Im like oh this crush should last about 2-3 days after which when the ewure* opens his mouth to start talking about his many sexual conquests, the crush dies a natural death and I look for a new one. In professional school (read law/ medicine/pharmacy, I refuse to specify) there are many fine boys……plenty……so ive not had a dearth of imaginary lovers so this is not the problem, the problem is my current crush

So this fine boy….hot hot specimen is my longest running crush to date, how long you ask…..drum roll………………atilogu dancers do ya thang and …………………………………………thunderous applause- One year!!!. Who has a crush for one year…its actually two but I had one year in between both years where I didn’t like this boy so ive decided not to count it………ive done everything to kill this crush, tried to convince myself that he doesn’t reciprocate but homeboy is always staring at me (how do you explain that eh? ) I cant even like other people as I should because there is a niggling thought that but you want XX…………what is a girl to do……..He is totally inappropriate and I know this-why?? Because ive done this before and I know………………he’s a nice boy but im pretty conservative, there’s a lot I don’t do but why focus on legalities………the point is when I see him, I try to be this free spirited somebody and my inner voice is like babe…..relax now….why are you faking………you know how people fake goody two shoes…mugu like me I’ll be faking ‘badder’ girl, the problem is not oh some girls are good/ bad…………..the problem is that im trying to be someone I’m not and not even enjoying it………….(ill tell you all about this at a later time heehee)………….this is how I know there’s a problem………if im trying to be someone else then……………..

I wont even lie,I go and stalk his facebook page sometimes, ive heard other girls in my class talk about how they have a crush on him too but I refuse to join them….my own na real ‘crushlove’ not their fleeting fancies……Some days I’ll wake up and be like yes today is the day, this crush is over….thank you Lord, then the boy comes to school/work wearing black……yepa…….too sexy…..or send me a text saying, you look very nice today………wicked somebody………I would tell you all the other times when I would talk/date boys that I know in my heart are inappropriate, the kinds you know are going to ‘deal with you’ but for some reason my heart wont learn what my head already knows………….but I wont bore you

To Compare or Not...This is the question

I was going to write a post about my long lost crush but then i jumped on facebook (the one hobby, I CANT understand why i still indulge in............I constantly complain its boring yet sign in like its my job on the regular smh) and discovered that someone i know had just done something big, really big......Was i happy for her?......Very!......Was I jealous?.............No! Did the monster that is called inadequacy rear its head........yes...........more like bit me in the butt..............I remember how before i got to professional school, I used to tell people, just do you.......be yourself, its good enough....yada yada yada.........and that was my mantra which i suppose was all well and good since myself in undergrad was a super star........................'throws blazer in the crowd for fans' heeheeeheee and then i got to Professional school and to say I was the class dunce is to insult other class dunces around the world.....................i wont bore you with the many details of my struggle but let it suffice to say i would wake up in the middle of the night sometimes to check my grades for the TENTH time because i was convinced i had been having a nightmare...........................So to be surrounded by superstars when your one is good.......to be surrounded by them when your NOT...................errr not quite...........................I used to be embarrased to talk to my classmates because i felt like such a loser.......i became a mini eagle......if i should spot a shadowy figure in the distance that MIGHT be one of them, i would sharpishly JUMP into the nearest stair well or elevator, i became so good that i would sense them from behind, jump into an elevator and sharply................very sharply press close and run away...............who is James Bond......hisss.................. but err after a while girls were tired oh....kilode........

No moral of my story here sha....................you live and you learn not so..........life and times will keep you humble........people tell me your so smart, your going to be a (insert lawyer, doctor/ pharmacist at this point) and i shake my head...........if you only knew......anyhoo's ........................proper post to follow* .................And that's all folks


* Go me.......Go me........'doing makossa dance' i have now joined those who say proper post to follow..................... :)

New Me :)

So its this easy to create a blog.......... Abajo* that the masses blog......heehee....i kid, actually, i over analyze everything and i always thought it must be so hard to create a blog and all and for like a year i thought about it, admired the 'super techy smart' bloggers who could actually create anything.......and today while i should be studying for professional school exams, i decided to create a blog.........and i wonder why other people win prizes for academic excellence smh......:)

How do people discover your blog and follow?? I assume my blog will be unfollowed for a while and is destined for blogger mediocrity (sobs uncontrollably...............) so no super snazzy give aways.............'distributes apology cards to future readers if any.

So things i assume about this blog:

1)I shall be the only one reading it for a while...........yaaaaay me :) but if you do arrive welcome!!

2)I shall probably be eventually discovered...hopefully later than sooner for the mere fact that i have friends who blog, dont know i know they blog and it took me all of 5 minutes to decipher they were the ones.............'those blurry pictures- errrrr not quite effective if your current brazilian weave is displayed in all its glory.......;)

3) this darling ol' blog shalt probably never EVER gain the adulation, praise and hilarity that was the portion of people like 'fine boy' who i still miss and wish i could verify his fineness..........in an agape Jesus loves you type way of course'......................no evil or lustful thoughts.....heeheee.............adjusts halo

4)You shall learn about me from this blog.........but just so you know....I love Jesus so no esoteric philosophical theories, i read a lot and do have my doubts and questions, i have no raunchy sex stories (cleans dust off self as all her would be 'hot blooded male fans depart :( ......................and i play around a lot.............:)

5)Oh and if it helps, i'm Nigerian........i know i know....arent there any other African nations out there..........i constantly check maps to confirm and shake my fist at British Colonial Masters.....what can i say...........:)

6) i realize conflict is an unavoidable part of life, religion, politics, relationships, name it........but no viscous posts or comments please............we cant all agree unfortunately..............